I can’t believe how big you’re getting. Sometimes it feels so long since you were born and you were so tiny, sometimes it feels hardly any time at all. One thing is for sure, I can’t imagine life without you and I’m so glad to have you in it.
I remember family coming to visit us on the day that you were born and bringing some 0-3 months sized clothes they’d bought as a gift. I looked at you in your little elephant sleepsuit which was newborn size and too big on you and thought “wow, I can’t believe you’re ever going to fit in that!” Yet here we are, four and a bit months later and they’re too small for you.
It has gone so fast and in many ways I feel like we’ve had time stolen from us – the week you were ill, the week you had your operation and the week my anxiety problems peaked. I just enjoy every moment I spend with you. You’re so much more aware now than you used to be and so intelligent.
I’ve watched you discover your hands and gain control of them, I’ve watched you smile, I’ve watched you babble away to your toys, I’ve watched you learn new skills each and every week. You become more aware of everything around you all the time.
You are no longer my tiny little baby who just eats, sleeps, wees and poops. You are now your own little person who is so cheeky and gets such delight from Mummy and Daddy saying “KISSES!” and kissing all over your little head and cheeks. You’ve learned to roll over now, are getting your first teeth, have grown much more hair and have learned to play with rattles. I’m almost afraid to blink in case I miss something; you’re changing so much all the time, right in front of me.
I’m excited to see you continue to grow – you found your right foot earlier this week so I’m sure it won’t be long before you find the left one too and try to eat them both. When we eat or use our phones with you on our laps, you try to steal what we’re holding. When crisp packets make their crackling noises, your face is filled with such wonder.
Mummy is always busy, running around and doing washing and different things. But sometimes she has to remember to just pause and watch. Mummy watches you smiling in your sleep and listens to your cute little squeaking sounds, she takes the time to not just change your nappy but looks at your sweet little feet and toes and she watches the look of determination on your face as you try to coordinate your arms and legs when you’re on your tummy.
The thing is, you’ve already grown so much right in front of my eyes. You won’t be as little tomorrow as you are today and that will continue day after day until once again I have to move you into the next size of clothing and wonder how on earth you grew out of the last size so quickly.
I just treasure every moment with you and am sad that it’s all going so fast already, yet I can’t wait to see the person you become.
All my love always, Mummy xxx